Marco the Phoenix (
fierybluebird) wrote2019-06-01 07:30 pm
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Appointment Post 2.0 since the other is pretty full
[Voice]
Hey, couldn't get to the comm right away, probably out kicking things. Since that doesn't last long, leave me a message and I'll get back to you as fast as I can, eh?
[Written]
Have a haiku.
There was a bluebird
Who was too busy for you
Leave me a message
[ooc: This post is a catch-all for threads that have to happen between posts. Start off with the Date & whether it's written/video/action in the comment bar and just start threadining.]
Oct 4th
If you're going to lie, at least do it with a straight face, eh?
[Grabs a seat next to Sabo and folds his legs.] Sorry you had to hear all that. Ace and I fight all the time, but usually we can just throw punches and be done with it.
You know we are both really glad to have you here though, right?
Oct 4th
[And he's... just not going to react on that last line, except maybe for tightening his grip on his knees. Because he's really starting to doubt this about himself. Should he even really be here at all? He's not sure anymore.]
Oct 4th
Besides we were loud enough, I'm surprised more people in the building didn't hear it and come complain or make sure we weren't going to burn anything down.
[Turns to get a good look at Sabo, a small frown about the Sabo ball and he tries to peek under Sabo's hat just a little.] Are you okay?
Oct 4th
Still, he can't let Marco worry, not when he's just trying to help. So Sabo swallows through dry throat and tries out Marco's advice about lying with a straight face.] Y-yeah. I mean, I'm worried about you guys fighting like that, but me? I'll be okay, uh... in a while.
[Welp, that much is true at least, though how long is 'in a while' even he's not sure.]
Oct 4th
Sometimes when you trust someone with all your heart, you trust them to deal with you even when things get bad. Ace and I will always be nakama. There's nothing we could do to change that. No matter what, we'll find a way to get through it, I promise. Nothing either of us could say or do would be unforgivable enough to forgo everything else we've always worked on. No matter how mad either of us get. Or how stupid.
You've known him for how many years now?
Oct 4th
E-eh? Five and a-- NO, wait a minute! I'm not saying you guys'll quit being nakama, geez. That's like saying you're not gonna be family anymore and that's crazy talk! I-I just meant... [sighs and slumps against the tree] I'm more worried about how and why that fight started...
Oct 4th
Berri for your thoughts?
Oct 4th
That's what I don't get, I guess. Why it exploded the way it did. Because y'know, earlier, Ace and I were just talking about... [dying and the issues that come with it but he can't say it like that. and well, maybe Marco'll get it anyway] --uh, about being here and how it gets tough sometimes... and that talk ended on a good note. So I'm wondering, what happened to change all that?
Oct 4th
[Plays with a bit of blue flames in his hands. He's still too furious to really explain to Sabo even just why he's mad at Ace. "Cheer up or I'll kick your ass." Yeah, that was a pretty idiotic thing to say, wasn't it? But like he already told Sabo, normally he wouldn't have to say it, he'd just do it.]
He's... Ace... [Takes a deep breath, closes his eyes, and distantly tries to recall his Pops, to bring him there, to ask him what to do, how to handle it, what to say. Whitebeard always seemed to know. Always understood people so well. Really, Marco felt clumsy in comparison.] It's like throwing logs on a bonfire, eh? One, two, three, he keeps burning, nothing explodes, he can handle it fine. Five, six, seven, he starts having more troubles. Once he reaches ten, it's like he'll either suffocate or explode, and sometimes he does both.
[God Marco wants a drink.] It's been a really rough patch. [Another deep breath. He's guessing. Does Ace really feel like he's alone in the world? Surely not that... but "he's acting like it?" No, that's still too immature thinking.] So I guess it's just a few too many more logs on the fire right now, eh?
Oct 4th
...He's always been like that, even before he became a fire human. More on the explode-y side and I think... maybe it worked for him? He'd lash out whenever he's angry and sometimes it'd take days, weeks before his mood changes, but... the time between 'em gets longer every time, and he'd mellowed out a lot by the time Luffy came along. Maybe he hasn't got the chance to be as angry as he wants here as much? Like, maybe he didn't want to worry you or Luffy? I--I don't know... [Rubs his eyes tiredly.] Sorry, Marco. Everything I know's a bit outdated.
[Sighs and looks at Marco.] ...'Sides, aren't you fire too? [He noticed all those deep breaths, bro. Sabo doesn't think Marco's the exploding type, but facing all this in one day isn't good.] ...We don't have to talk about this now, y'know.
Oct 4th
[Reaches out a gentle hand and ruffles Sabo's hair, knocking the hat off a little.] I am fire too, but I'm more bird than him. [Aka: airy.] I've had a lot more years to get a hold of myself. [Which made losing his temper like this just that much more embarrassing.] Ace is trying to work through a lot of things, but there's no one set way to do it, eh? There's no right way or wrong way, just ways that work, and everything else is a mine field until it does.
I don't know how to help him through it. I want to just carry him over it, but it doesn't work that way. So the best we can do is put up with a few explosions as they happen. At least we'll learn to try a different route.
Oct 4th
Oct 4th
You do help Sabo. Just by being here. Just by surviving and continuing on. By still being you and still being by Ace's side when he needs it.
Just because he feels alone about it, doesn't mean he is. So we have to show him he's not. He's dense, and sometimes he's slow, and he's always always stubborn as hell, because he's Ace and he's an idiot, but we love him anyway. We just have to show it to him. And it'll take time because he's an idiot. But he's smart enough to get there eventually. He's done it before on other things, he'll get it on this too. We just have to show that he can't push us away and that we are never giving up on him, so he can't give up on himself either, okay?
Oct 4th
...I'm not giving up on him. He's my first real friend, Marco. There's no way I'd leave him like this, no matter how dumbass he's being. It's just... it's hard living through this. I can't blame him for feeling hopeless sometimes, 'cause there's nothing else for us but this place, and it keeps screwing us up. It's a choice between sucking it up, or nothing. But it's really hard...
[Curling up more in Marco's hug.] He's way stronger than me now, and he's lived through a lot s-so... whenever he loses hope like that, I...I feel like giving up too. I hate feeling that way, but... [why can't things be simpler like when they were both kids?]
Oct 4th
[Hugs tighter. He nearly wants to cry himself, but this is helping. A lot.] I feel the same way you do matey. That's why I got so mad at him, eh? Because he's my reason for always trying so if he can't get it together, what chance have we got, right? But it's okay. He will. It's just a matter of time, unfortunately. And we'll keep trying from different angles until he gets it. Agreed?
And things... they're not hopeless here. I mean hell, it's got more calm times than some of the New World, and there's a lot of fun. We'll just have to make it more fun.
Oct 4th
But he goes quiet again for the next part, remembering how many times this place hurt him already and he's here for barely half a year.] ...Do you really think we can?
Oct 4th
[Marco nods and ruffles Sabo's hair again.] I know so. With three amazing brothers like us how could Ace go wrong, eh?