fierybluebird: Marco in black at his father's funeral (Edna Million in a drop dead suit)
Marco the Phoenix ([personal profile] fierybluebird) wrote2013-02-18 07:49 am

Ace and Sabo are gone // Written, Action

[The first few times Marco tries to find his voice, he can't. This is what Robin, what everyone tried to warn him about isn't it? And he didn't listen. He always refused. Even if his father had been here and told him the same things, he wouldn't have listened to him either. At first he tries to seek solace in the rooftop, the memorial for his Pops, but today, not even that is enough. Where can he go other than "home?" And home is no longer CH3. It is still Luceti, scattered throughout his loved ones, but other than Leanne, that describe CH3 now.]

[He opens the journal and tries to speak, but he can't. So he winds up writing instead.]


Happy Post-Valentine's Day to anyone. I hope many happy couples found each other and no one was too disrupted.

[His hand shakes, and then clenches and the pen breaks. Too angry, so much rage. He uses the bottom half of the quill as best as he can to write more.]

My little brothers, [A long pause. He looks up at the flag and... it's not enough. Nothing is.] are both gone. Even knowing that every single day they had here was extra time, and as grateful as I am for that, they deserve more. I can't tell you they've gone to a better place, because they haven't.

[The last thing Sabo saw before his death was fire. And Ace died crying and smiling at the same time.]

But they're in good company I guess.

[Good company? He was jealous of them, still, even now. He had a huge fight with Ace about it, but he was jealous. Ace was jealous that Marco could be with the living, and Marco was jealous that Ace could be with the dead, could protect someone he loved that deeply by dying for them, something Marco never could. It was a dumb thing to be jealous about, but even knowing how infantile it was, didn't make it go away. It's a good time to go get a new pen. So Marco jumps down and goes to the item shop, finds a pen and right there, in middle of the shop, sits down on the floor and continues.]

I've lost a lot of nakama before, but Ace's affected me the worst. He brought with him a new era. He saved the man who will be the New Pirate King and renounced the world's idea of villains and heroes. [Marco sets the book and pen down so he won't break them again and it's all bit before he picks them back up.] In legends, phoenixes are supposed to herald the changing of eras, but I hate it. Mankind's eras in my world are tragically majestic things, but what use are they to an individual?

I'm not going back to the apartment for a long time. And I might move when I'm ready. I took the important things with me, but I'm not going back there.

Luceti is still my home. Make no mistake, I'll fight forever for my right to stay and the right for anyone else who wants to stay. I always will. That's who I am.

[He needs to talk to people, to try to comfort them in the wake of Ace's absence, in the wake of Sabo's, but all Marco wants to do is fly away. It's too cowardly though, so he won't. He wants to switch into phoenix form and stop feeling anything, but that's also cowardly and he know Robin's been trying to break him of the habit.]

If you think you can find me, you can try, otherwise, say the word and I'll come find you. No promises about the state I'll be in.

- Marco
toujoursfluer: (chu)

[voice] / [Locked]

[personal profile] toujoursfluer 2013-02-28 03:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll be here whenever you need me. Just come to my window, Marcchan. Any time.
entreats: (she's seeing too clearly)

[personal profile] entreats 2013-02-28 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I think we all know that feeling here. [ Honestly, she might have been in the 'better to not have them at all' camp before, but.. it's changed. Mostly thanks to the people here. ]

But as long as we have a chance here, we should hold onto it as much as we can. If it does end up going wrong, then we can always still start thinking like that after all in the end.
deathsdoctor: (Neutral | That far off horizon)

[personal profile] deathsdoctor 2013-03-01 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[He just answers with a smile, tired and somber and sad, and hands Marco one of his best sakazuki sake cups. No ochoko for this. He withdraws another cup, and then opens the bottle and pours.]

To Whitebeard, Ace, and Sabo. May your journey be swift to what awaits beyond that far horizon, with clear skies, fair winds, and following seas - for your navigator is love. The love of those who have sailed before, and those who will travel yet.

[How many times has he toasted the departed like this?

Too many.]
Edited 2013-03-01 00:59 (UTC)
deathsdoctor: (Neutral | Hidden face\Heavy decisions (p)

[personal profile] deathsdoctor 2013-03-02 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
Honor them, for starters.

[Quietly:]

It is a loss, Mister Marco. Even if they're dead back in our world, you're mourning everything that could ever be in this one. Don't sell short your grief.

[It never is all about all that was. It's all that could be that causes the most tears.]
Edited 2013-03-02 06:16 (UTC)
bubblywishes: (In silent memory.)

[THAT NIGHT]

[personal profile] bubblywishes 2013-03-02 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I know, and I won't.

[Tell him otherwise, she means. Norma wants to say she doesn't need protecting, but who is she fooling? Even on her own, especially on her own, she's not very strong at all. Her eres can only get her so far, and casting takes time and concentration to get it right. Norma's not arrogant enough to think she doesn't need help when she so clearly needs it. And, to be honest? Having Marco near her like that...she can keep an eye on and help him when and where she can, too.

Weaving her arms around him as far as they can go, she rubs her face against his chest, bracing her forehead against his tattoo.]


Same here. Whatever it takes, I'm gonna do the same, okay? [So there.]
entreats: (everybody leaves her)

[personal profile] entreats 2013-03-02 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
It's since it's something I had to learn. I guess the same counts for a lot of people here.

[ And it took a lot. A whole lot, considering it's Ange. ]

But like this it means you at least have one person who understands, right? [ See, she might actually even be smiling here. Imagine that. ]
hollower: (Vanilla Twilight.)

[Voice]

[personal profile] hollower 2013-03-03 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
...Would you like some company, phoe--Marco-san?

[Perona supposes she can stomach being around him for this. In fact, Marco's never really been too much of a bother, just when he opens his mouth and says unnecessary things to make her mad. But right now, it seems they both need someone they can lean on.]
uccellodifuoco: And I am so fucked up (006 - Nothing but no trust)

[Action]

[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-03-03 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
There's nothing else we can do, Marco. Sometimes all we can do is just sit, wait and hope, as annoying as that is.

[Pain slips into Ikki words for a second. He sighs, wondering if he's even saying the right things... But it's the only truth he knows, his own experience and he's not the type to shut up just because it's not nice.]

You're going to be a phoenix forever, whether we like it or not. And people insist on seeing the figure of a phoenix as one that has hope tied to it, because we will always rise again. If we stop having hope, we may be committing the worst sin possible.

[He says this now, but he himself probably will want to throw away hope and whatever later on. That's how Ikki is.]
entreats: (she just needs someone)

[personal profile] entreats 2013-03-03 05:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ... Say bye to the smile and hi to the grumpy pout. You look so mature like this, Ange. ]

I'll say 'you're welcome' if you can drop the ruffling part of it.
deathsdoctor: (Neutral | Showing my back)

[personal profile] deathsdoctor 2013-03-04 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[To everything - he feels the same way. He has those days too. Nakama, Itachi, and Katara are excluded of course, but there's some days he prefers the company of animals to people.

He pours Marco more sake.]
entreats: (you're silent but strong)

[personal profile] entreats 2013-03-05 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ A choked sound comes from her. ]

L-like saying that out of nowhere is going to make it any better! Keep your lame jokes to your haircut. [ tsun tsun.. ]
bubblywishes: (Not sure about this...)

[THAT NIGHT]

[personal profile] bubblywishes 2013-03-06 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe.

[She hugs back, though it's not nearly as tight or secure as the other times. Norma's starting to not be sure if it'd be better or not to have Ace back. Sure, she'd love to see him and hold him and laugh with him again, but at the same time, he'd have to suffer all the garbage this place had to offer. At least being...wh-where he was now, he was free from all that. Even then, though, that thought doesn't make her feel any better, and the tears well up in her eyes even more.]
deathsdoctor: (Neutral | That far off horizon)

[personal profile] deathsdoctor 2013-03-06 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
Marco... most people don't even care about dumb kids. Or want to abuse and use the shit out of us. [Downing his own sake and pouring himself more.] Hurt, dead, whatever the end... the fact someone reaches out a genuine hand is worth more treasure than I've ever seen.

So it's worth it. Even if they don't remember it. Doesn't mean they won't carry it with them where it counts.

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