[Ikki hates Marco now, and his current form. He can't help to relax at the petting, neither fight the feeling of safety he gets from it. How can Marco like this form so much when it makes it hard to keep one's guard up? Still he shakes his head at the first comment.]

No, I don't mean to say she didn't love me. She just didn't plan on having me, she didn't want to, but when she was pregnant she probably couldn't back down, so she just went with it. Much like I didn't want to become a Saint but once it happened and I realized what it meant it was too late for me to turn back.

Just because you go along with something and can come to even appreciate it doesn't mean that you wanted it. And Shun was different.

[Maybe not, but Ikki isn't going to accept thinking about that. He's okay with him not having been wanted, but Shun must have been wanted, without regret and with tons of love. He can't accept anything else.

He listens to the rest in silence. Relaxing and crouching over Marco's chest, his eyes show that he doesn't get it yet, maybe he will never get it, but he's listening and trying to understand. He's happy though, even if he doesn't get it all it's clear that Marco is indeed the man he thought him to be, and honestly that is enough. That moment of doubt, of fear of Marco not being that type, was something he didn't enjoy at all.]

And you give her joy with sex? I don't get how that can be "fun".