[Those words and that hand are more helpful than it might appear. He's just sitting silently, staring at his tea, but he's thinking. Thinking so much. What does he want? What does... Kiku want? He squeezes that hand.]

I... ...I like it. [He doesn't stop his squeezing.] Power, that is. I enjoy being on the top... Making my name known and standing up for myself. I do not enjoy the way that I must act to do that, though.

[He loves the power, but he doesn't like having to be blunt or hurting people. HE CONTRADICTS HIMSELF REALLY.]

I do not like what I am turning into on this path, but I do not like seeing the path that I end up tossed to, either. ...Has Marco ever experienced something like this?