fierybluebird: Marco in black at his father's funeral (Edna Million in a drop dead suit)
Marco the Phoenix ([personal profile] fierybluebird) wrote2013-02-18 07:49 am

Ace and Sabo are gone // Written, Action

[The first few times Marco tries to find his voice, he can't. This is what Robin, what everyone tried to warn him about isn't it? And he didn't listen. He always refused. Even if his father had been here and told him the same things, he wouldn't have listened to him either. At first he tries to seek solace in the rooftop, the memorial for his Pops, but today, not even that is enough. Where can he go other than "home?" And home is no longer CH3. It is still Luceti, scattered throughout his loved ones, but other than Leanne, that describe CH3 now.]

[He opens the journal and tries to speak, but he can't. So he winds up writing instead.]


Happy Post-Valentine's Day to anyone. I hope many happy couples found each other and no one was too disrupted.

[His hand shakes, and then clenches and the pen breaks. Too angry, so much rage. He uses the bottom half of the quill as best as he can to write more.]

My little brothers, [A long pause. He looks up at the flag and... it's not enough. Nothing is.] are both gone. Even knowing that every single day they had here was extra time, and as grateful as I am for that, they deserve more. I can't tell you they've gone to a better place, because they haven't.

[The last thing Sabo saw before his death was fire. And Ace died crying and smiling at the same time.]

But they're in good company I guess.

[Good company? He was jealous of them, still, even now. He had a huge fight with Ace about it, but he was jealous. Ace was jealous that Marco could be with the living, and Marco was jealous that Ace could be with the dead, could protect someone he loved that deeply by dying for them, something Marco never could. It was a dumb thing to be jealous about, but even knowing how infantile it was, didn't make it go away. It's a good time to go get a new pen. So Marco jumps down and goes to the item shop, finds a pen and right there, in middle of the shop, sits down on the floor and continues.]

I've lost a lot of nakama before, but Ace's affected me the worst. He brought with him a new era. He saved the man who will be the New Pirate King and renounced the world's idea of villains and heroes. [Marco sets the book and pen down so he won't break them again and it's all bit before he picks them back up.] In legends, phoenixes are supposed to herald the changing of eras, but I hate it. Mankind's eras in my world are tragically majestic things, but what use are they to an individual?

I'm not going back to the apartment for a long time. And I might move when I'm ready. I took the important things with me, but I'm not going back there.

Luceti is still my home. Make no mistake, I'll fight forever for my right to stay and the right for anyone else who wants to stay. I always will. That's who I am.

[He needs to talk to people, to try to comfort them in the wake of Ace's absence, in the wake of Sabo's, but all Marco wants to do is fly away. It's too cowardly though, so he won't. He wants to switch into phoenix form and stop feeling anything, but that's also cowardly and he know Robin's been trying to break him of the habit.]

If you think you can find me, you can try, otherwise, say the word and I'll come find you. No promises about the state I'll be in.

- Marco
faithfulflame: (Priest Concentration)

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[personal profile] faithfulflame 2013-02-18 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rei...knows that feeling. She remembers what it was like losing Usagi. And what it was like losing Harry. And...she knows that he needs someone.

Prayer is in order. And she's already getting out paper.]


Marco-san, come to the shrine, please.
faithfulflame: (Rei Downcast)

[personal profile] faithfulflame 2013-02-18 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rei doesn't say a word, she just stands up and throws her arms around Marco. She's not normally one for displays of affection like that. But...after Valentine's day, and Harry, and...she knows what Ace meant to Marco. And Sabo too. Losing family. Family that...couldn't come back. That was just...it was awful.

And even if it wasn't what she'd normally do, she knew he needed that.]
faithfulflame: (Rei Alone Again)

[personal profile] faithfulflame 2013-02-18 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh...Marco-san. I...I'm sorry.

[She pulls back when he switches, a little surprised with herself for doing it in the first place. It wasn't really proper. But...Marco had been good to her, better than most people, and he did need the support. It's what Usagi would do. And all the others. She tugged him gently though, pulling him towards the fire.]

Sit. You...may want hands. We'll send Ace-san and Sabo-kun away with prayer.
entreats: (i'm trying to find a place i belong)

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[personal profile] entreats 2013-02-18 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ .. Ace is gone..? Sure, it does sting her a little, she always did like talking to the guy, he was.. kind, not to mention it was good to see him and Marco being so close -- but it's why she can imagine the kind of pain Marco must feel right now, she's felt it so often too with people close to her disappearing. But he comforted her when Battler and Kyrie disappeared, right? So the least she can do in return..

It's very rare for her to be polite or even actually say 'please' but in this case it might just be a little justified. ]


Please come over? You know where. [ Since it's where he last comforted her, so.. ] Outside the house is fine.
entreats: (she just needs someone)

[personal profile] entreats 2013-02-18 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That's.. not really what she expected, just getting a hug like that right away. And it's enough to make her eyes widen for a moment in surprise, but she trie to swallow it right after. ]

M.. moron, I didn't call you over to comfort me! You're the one who deserves comfort right now! [ Ange will forever be Ange, so she just shouts it at him, but.. then she (slightly relunctantly since HER TSUN CAN'T HANDLE THIS) slowly moves her arms up to hug him in return too. ]
uccellodifuoco: And I am so fucked up (006 - Nothing but no trust)

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[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-02-18 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Marco sent a message through the journals? What message? What journals? Ikki doesn't bother to even check them. He didn't know Sabo, and he knew Ace only a little bit, but he knows Marco and he knew they were important to Marco, so, at the very least, he always kept an eye on Ace. Despite all the powerful Cosmos that are in Luceti, it's not hard to notice the absence of one you're used to check on everyday. It's not hard for him to realize that Ace is gone, the same way he realized that Selphie was gone both times. And so is gone the smaller Cosmo that was at Marco's place, Ikki's guess is that it means that Marco is alone now.

For the first time, he realizes how bad this is, to be friends with both a marine and a pirate. Because part of him wants to offer Marco a place for whenever he's ready for it, but he lives with Smoker so it's not an option, and he likes to live with Smoker. At the very least, though, he can still give support to the pirate. He's sure that Marco is going to try to force himself to comfort everyone without bothering for taking comfort himself. Assuming he doesn't just fly away from everyone to hide and mope. It's what Ikki would do at least, though he's not much of a comforting person to begin with.

Still, Ikki keeps his usual routine for most of the day, talking to Kotomi through the journals first thing in the morning after he realizes what happened, taking out Hyoga, working at the bar... Always keeping an eye on Marco's Cosmos, to know where he is and only when it seems he's mostly done with visiting people around, Ikki leaves everything he was doing, picks a small bag and flies to where the other phoenix is.]
uccellodifuoco: Can't take this anymore." This heart breaks (003 - I feel like "Fuck man)

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[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-02-18 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[To Ikki this is the proof that Marco is stronger than he is, because he definitively wouldn't be able to do this. Or care to try to keep up the act and hold himself together. The most he can and has done is to close himself so much that it just doesn't matter to him if they are gone or not. Convince himself that the reason why he's upset is because he's still trapped here, not because they left. That and avoid thinking of them, though it's not an easy thing to do.

The blue haired man walks across the library in silence, making a beeline to where he knows Marco is. When he arrives, though, he realizes that he sucks at comforting people, because he has never allowed himself to be comforted, so what could he know about that? He can't even make a pathetic attempt at it. Maybe it would be better to leave the other alone until he's recovered, let Marco deal with things his own way.

He ends sitting besides the other.]


For a moment I thought of letting you deal with this crap on your own way. But if the roles were reversed I doubt you would leave me alone that easily so...

[Consider yourself pestered, Marco.]
uccellodifuoco: Let's hide by this lust (007 - So let this gun bond us)

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[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-02-18 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ACTUALLY HE HAS. Except that it was Shun and Shun never counts as a grown man in Ikki's book.

Ikki is surprised, not gonna lie, but he likes Marco too much to be able to tsun right now. At least not enough to push him away or anything, in fact he actually returns the hug, rubbing Marco's back slightly as he would do if it was Shun. He may not know how to comfort Marco, but he can give him whatever Marco asks for, right? It's the least he can do.]


I can say it has been a month... I doubt it will feel much different than it does now even if ten years go by, at least whenever you think about it.

[Which isn't very encouraging, but with them being phoenixes it's kind of a given. Everyone around them will die or leave, and they will still remain for God knows how long. And they will always hurt deep down, the wounds made by those who aren't with them anymore but came to hold a key to their hearts, no matter how many years go by. No matter if they find new friends, new family, new love, those they lost will always be there and fresh enough to bleed. The only reason why they will seem to be better is because they eventually learn to live on with a bleeding heart.

At least that's what Ikki's believes given his own experience. And so far nothing has come close to make him reconsider that belief. Still he knows it's quite the opposite of what comfort should be and he sighs.]


I'm sorry, Marco. I'm not good at those things, so unless you tell me what to do or say I'm afraid all I can give you is company.
Edited 2013-02-18 22:44 (UTC)
uccellodifuoco: And I am so fucked up (006 - Nothing but no trust)

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[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-02-18 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[This is why he hates to be around people. When they need him he can't do anything unless whatever is hurting them is something he can punch and beat to a pulp. Others like Seiya can do both things, he always could both give comfort and beat what was hurting others to a pulp. He could even do it at the same time when they fought against each other, beating Ikki at the same time as he gave him comfort and a plug for his bleeding heart. But Ikki can't do that, he's useless at times like those.

It's also why he always refused Saori's offer to live in the mansion, even if Shun was there. Precisely because Shun was there and he knew he would be useless there for him unless they were constantly attacked.]


If you're tired then why don't just rest? You can't run away from yourself if there's someone with you to hold the rope as you run and pull at it to bring you back when they consider it's enough. Right?

[That's Ikki's way to say that he has no plans of going far from Marco in the next days, weeks, months unless he deems it necessary to give Marco some alone time or the other is with someone else. Meaning that if Marco decides to go live in the mountains, he's going to have an orange phoenix right at his back.]
uccellodifuoco: And I am so fucked up (006 - Nothing but no trust)

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[personal profile] uccellodifuoco 2013-02-18 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Hn, whatever you decide to do is fine with me. Doesn't change my plans.

[You're still going to have him with you whenever you're not busying yourself with others, Marco.]

"Thanks", huh? I wish I could do more than just this.
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[personal profile] faithfulflame 2013-02-19 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
You tell them you love them.

[And knowing they were dead?]

And that you'll remember them, always.
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[personal profile] faithfulflame 2013-02-19 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Slides over a brush, inkstone, and paper]

You should.

[She prepares the same]

And I'll do it too.

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