Hi Xifer,

I guess you probably heard I got really mad at Marco. I didn't mean to. Sometimes when I get mad I don't know what to do. I just, I don't know, explode. I said I was sorry though. Hopefully he'll forgive me.

I don't want people to hold back, but I kind of held back against Selphie. I just used one sword. I won, but she did really well. I wouldn't want anyone to hold back against me though. I'm strong, I can take it. If I can't, then I'm not strong enough yet. So far though, I do okay.

Yeah, I'll try and explain it a little. I should back up a lot. A Heartless is a creature or a being of some kind that doesn't have a heart. Most of the Hearless are like creatures. There were thirteen Nobodies. So a Nobody is someone who's a Heartless, but looks like a person. So when someone strong loses their heart, that's when they come out of it a Nobody. At least, I think there were only thirteen.

This kind of goes to your question about my memory too. No amount of memory is going to make me a Somebody. For me to be a Somebody, I'd have to get my heart back...only that can't ever happen. I don't get it all myself. It has something to do with Naminé. See, when Lea was Axel, who was his Nobody, he knew his whole life before. He looked the same, and now that he's back he remembers everything. Before losing his heart, afterwards and when he came back. I'm not entirely sure what happened with me. Not really. But my Somebody is Sora. He's whole again, because he's from the future to where I'm from. Which means what's left of me, if anything, is locked inside of him. If I get my heart back, there is no more Roxas. Just Sora.

I don't really know DiZ. He's the one that locked me in the computer prison. It's like I was somewhere I knew, Twilight Town. Only it was fake. Everything was fake. My friends, my memories, the sunlight...all of it, and I didn't know it. None of the people I knew there were real. Naminé said they had to keep me there. They took my memories so I wouldn't leave. She's the one who told me I had to go back to Sora. I was about to, but I came here instead.

It's not really that creative, I don't think. All Xemnas did was take 'Sora' and add an 'x'. Roxas. Just like someone did for Lea. Axel. I know you're not a Heartless though. I guess I just didn't want to be the only one with a name like that.

Xemnas isn't the only one I have to worry about. Any of the Organization members, at least the ones that came back from Castle Oblivion, are looking for me.

I think me and Lea worked it out. I'm glad about that.

As for my memories, it's not scary. Mostly, it's confusing. I don't like feeling like I'm forgetting things and it's hard to learn new things sometimes. I don't know why this is happening to me, which is a little confusing.

It's sad, but the past is all I have. I don't get a future. I don't think Sora even knows me. At least, he didn't, until I came here. He knows about me, in that I existed, but I don't think he knows anything else. I just...stopped existing. I know Lea would be mad any way. He told Thatch no numbers for me. I just don't want to forget him. Maybe that doesn't matter anymore.

I like remembering the good things. Most of our time together was good. We're really glad we can be together again here for now at least. We can work it out somehow.

Last time I fell asleep like that, it was for twenty-one days. It was in my journal at the castle. It's a long time to sleep. I don't know what happened, I just...fainted and didn't get up. I think Lea would worry. He wasn't at the castle then, he was gone to Castle Oblivion and I thought he was dead.

Okay Xifer. I'll look for you. If you're not here, it's okay. If you are, you can meet my chick.

-Roxas