That's not really true. Lea is a lot more emotional now, but I think he got more emotional just like I did. Even if I do or don't have a heart which I guess we can't check, but, something about me makes me not suitable for what he wants. Whatever it is. When I last saw Axel he was just as angry and screaming as I was.
I don't know if I can think of more nicknames though. I'll try really hard okay?
Well I understand and I guess I did join, but it's not really...I don't think the way I was, I could make a decision. I mean it was just he walks up to me and he gives me his word that he'll give me a purpose and answers and then named ma and that was it. I mean, I didn't say anything because I couldn't even talk back then. It's not really fair and then yeah I went to leave. There was nowhere to go though. I remember I didn't know where to go and then....I'm missing some time in there. And Riku found me and you know how that ended. Leaving the Organization doesn't mean I'll be accepted anywhere else. Riku didn't see me. He only saw Sora. He knew what to say to bring Sora out of me. That happens sometimes you know. He'll talk through me. Or should I say I'll? I don't know. I'm confused.
I guess I understand why I can't be part of the crew. Does that mean I have to get my tattoo changed like Lea is doing?
I'm not worried about his power. I just think that if I'm the only one here and I fight him because I will, he'll make my friends suffer for it. I don't think he cares much for heart-people anyway.
I gave it some thought. I think it's both. I'm very angry that I've been marked this way and I can't get rid of it. Even joining Sora is a bad idea because then they'll find him. I'm mad that he- [There's a scribble here] I guess I always knew he considered me a tool, but not just a tool. It's like being myself didn't matter, he's going to take it away from me. I'm mad because I think he knew everything that was happening to me and I'm remembering some things, some weird feelings and I am wondering if he was involved. I think he might have been and I'm mad about that too. I don't understand what I did to deserve any of this. I don't get it! I did everything they told me to until the end and I think he was messing around with me before then. He might have been, since I think he knew the witch Namine.
I am really confused about a lot of this and this letter probably makes no sense at all. Sorry.
6/20/2014
I don't know if I can think of more nicknames though. I'll try really hard okay?
Well I understand and I guess I did join, but it's not really...I don't think the way I was, I could make a decision. I mean it was just he walks up to me and he gives me his word that he'll give me a purpose and answers and then named ma and that was it. I mean, I didn't say anything because I couldn't even talk back then. It's not really fair and then yeah I went to leave. There was nowhere to go though. I remember I didn't know where to go and then....I'm missing some time in there. And Riku found me and you know how that ended. Leaving the Organization doesn't mean I'll be accepted anywhere else. Riku didn't see me. He only saw Sora. He knew what to say to bring Sora out of me. That happens sometimes you know. He'll talk through me. Or should I say I'll? I don't know. I'm confused.
I guess I understand why I can't be part of the crew. Does that mean I have to get my tattoo changed like Lea is doing?
I'm not worried about his power. I just think that if I'm the only one here and I fight him because I will, he'll make my friends suffer for it. I don't think he cares much for heart-people anyway.
I gave it some thought. I think it's both. I'm very angry that I've been marked this way and I can't get rid of it. Even joining Sora is a bad idea because then they'll find him. I'm mad that he- [There's a scribble here] I guess I always knew he considered me a tool, but not just a tool. It's like being myself didn't matter, he's going to take it away from me. I'm mad because I think he knew everything that was happening to me and I'm remembering some things, some weird feelings and I am wondering if he was involved. I think he might have been and I'm mad about that too. I don't understand what I did to deserve any of this. I don't get it! I did everything they told me to until the end and I think he was messing around with me before then. He might have been, since I think he knew the witch Namine.
I am really confused about a lot of this and this letter probably makes no sense at all. Sorry.
-Roxas