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fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pm
fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pmLetters from Xifer
A series of correspondence letters between a phoenix and his boy.
fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pm
6/20/2014
Nicknames are a good thing in my family. Thatch and I have a billion for each other. The more we share the better it is.
I'm not one to let traitors go either, but that's because of what it means to join in the first place. Like how Ace was saying he wanted you to hold your head high, it's because we only want people who want to give their all into being in the crew. So if someone just used us as a shield, it'd be a pretty grave insult, and in order to discourage anyone else from trying to do that, I'd be pretty cruel about it. The difference is though, that guy never gave you a choice about leaving. I'll given even enemies a chance to leave and live so long as they don't hurt my family.
I don't think you need to worry about protecting us. If he comes we'd be all too happy to lay a trap and like Riku and Lea decide how they want to deal with him. As powerful as he is, I don't think Davy Jones would bring someone more powerful than himself here, and Chandra and Grell and her crew are all strong and creatively insane, so I trust them to be able to come up with a plan to deal with things.
Are you just mad about being marked at all, or do you think it runs deeper?
- Marco
6/20/2014
I don't know if I can think of more nicknames though. I'll try really hard okay?
Well I understand and I guess I did join, but it's not really...I don't think the way I was, I could make a decision. I mean it was just he walks up to me and he gives me his word that he'll give me a purpose and answers and then named ma and that was it. I mean, I didn't say anything because I couldn't even talk back then. It's not really fair and then yeah I went to leave. There was nowhere to go though. I remember I didn't know where to go and then....I'm missing some time in there. And Riku found me and you know how that ended. Leaving the Organization doesn't mean I'll be accepted anywhere else. Riku didn't see me. He only saw Sora. He knew what to say to bring Sora out of me. That happens sometimes you know. He'll talk through me. Or should I say I'll? I don't know. I'm confused.
I guess I understand why I can't be part of the crew. Does that mean I have to get my tattoo changed like Lea is doing?
I'm not worried about his power. I just think that if I'm the only one here and I fight him because I will, he'll make my friends suffer for it. I don't think he cares much for heart-people anyway.
I gave it some thought. I think it's both. I'm very angry that I've been marked this way and I can't get rid of it. Even joining Sora is a bad idea because then they'll find him. I'm mad that he- [There's a scribble here] I guess I always knew he considered me a tool, but not just a tool. It's like being myself didn't matter, he's going to take it away from me. I'm mad because I think he knew everything that was happening to me and I'm remembering some things, some weird feelings and I am wondering if he was involved. I think he might have been and I'm mad about that too. I don't understand what I did to deserve any of this. I don't get it! I did everything they told me to until the end and I think he was messing around with me before then. He might have been, since I think he knew the witch Namine.
I am really confused about a lot of this and this letter probably makes no sense at all. Sorry.
-Roxas