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[Tugs him into his lap and wraps wings around him.]

Tell me all about it.

[He's a little surprised, but he lets Marco pull him into that. Hm.]

...I tried my best to explain myself, and he accepted me as an ally... but it was completely reluctant. And he refuses to be friends. Ah, he wants nothing to do with me.

Give it some more time, eh. I think he was a lot more upset that he thought you were friends than even being stabbed. It's hard to go back to such a thing.

[Distant gaze, thinking about Blackbeard obviously, and a little bit on Squardo, but snuggles Japan close.]

That is exactly what it is. [He's looking down so much his hair probably hides his eyes from view. He's really upset at himself...]

I told him that we would be friends no matter what. That no trip home or event or future that I already knew of could change that. I lied... in such a hurtful way, I went back on that promise...

[Sighs heavily and holds Japan close.]

Friends don't... He was bragging about his weapons. And you got upset. I told you once, if I ever hurt you that much, I'd want you to hang me up by the cuffs in the tree, eh? Because if that's what it takes to get through to me because I wasn't listening well enough, then that's what it takes. It's why I told Hong Kong and Taiwan that if I ever did hurt you, then I'd let them kick my ass.

America has a lot of growing up to do.

[Though Marco feels America's gotten a bit more insane since Japan stabbed him, but maybe it was coincidental what with England showing up and disappearing and the chaos with France and others.]

You can't just repair something like that with words, eh. But you are allies, so that means you have time to work it out.

...I should not have been so weak. I agree that he must grow up, but...

[He had to, too. Sigh.]

I understand it cannot be repaired easily. I intend to work for it.

[Kisses his cheek gently.]

You'll get there. You're stronger now and won't lose control next time, eh?

...I worry about this place, as well.

You mean you think he might try to do something?

No.. [Hand to head. Blah.] Forgive me. I was speaking of how easily influenced I tend to be. The events that occur in this place have a great effect on me. I am especially worried now that my chip is in once more...

Influenced eh? You're making it very hard not use that to my advantage.... again.

All right, how can I help you?

E-eh? [Waves hand, Marco you say such silly things...! ...Stares.]

I admit I am not sure. I could ask to have my chip removed, but that would cause problems of my own. If I visit that time period again...

Lean on me. I can handle anything you throw at me, eh?

I believe I need some time to think on whether I wish for my chip to be removed or not. [He leans on Marco, quite literally, now and sighs.] But would Marco take care of me at that time?

... Ah, it is a huge burden. Perhaps more than I first expected. ...And if anything happens before then... I suppose I would like to be able to rely on each other... But it's difficult. [Sometimes things make them both affected, he's thinking. It could happen. His first arrival had things messing with like EVERYONE...]

[Laughs when Japan literally leans on him and nuzzles cheerfully.] Of course I would.

Your choice, but I don't see why you wouldn't get it out, eh. Maybe I just need my phoenix side more though.

Simply the hassle of it all. [He has no major goals-- but then again, there are a lot of people he cares about here. Maybe he should start really being there for his citizens.

...]

Ah, it would be nice to be safer like that... Cube-san is always so busy, though. ...And it truly will be a hassle, you realize...

Aye, but how much worse can it be than getting stuck defenseless?

[Another shrug.] Well, at least you have your sword, eh.

[He pauses, slowly brushing some hair out of his face. Hm...]

Marco has a point... I believe I will be removing it. Ah, but, I won't be needing that sword.

What? Why not? You learn magic or something?

Magic?! [LMAO shocked face and staring at... what.]

A-ah, that's... [No.]

...Swords are quite nice, but that sword is something I set down years ago. I am not sure how to properly explain this...

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Just try and I'll listen my best no matter what the words, eh?

[...Alright. He can try.]

That sword has always been something I have used to push myself forward and cut through the crowds. Perhaps there were times I used it in defense, but for the most part... my "self-defense" was to attack first, wasn't it? [He sighs.]

Holding it now, all I can feel are the numbers of those I have hurt. And while that is a burden I should carry forever, it is one I should carry with my heart alone.

I would like it if fights could be avoided. If things could be settled through words... I am realistic, of course. I can still defend myself. But it will be purely that, and through different motions than what I have done in the past.

Perhaps I can make a wooden sword later...

[Blinks and then nods and pets his head. Marco can't pretend he understands pacifism, but he remembers how Japan used to be and it helps sync up to the actions and words now.]

No sparring either then?

[Looking down at the petting.]

...Is that disappointment?

I can still train, but I will have to think on sparring. I am not used to having to face these things.

It isn't. Just curiosity. I find it hard to really fight you, eh. I can't bring myself to risk hurting someone I love. Even with Ace, I only act as a wall he can lash out at.

But I can't always guard you, eh? [Though, he's tempted to try.] Will you be all right?

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