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fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pm
fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pmLetters from Xifer
A series of correspondence letters between a phoenix and his boy.
fierybluebird) wrote2014-04-14 10:59 pm
6/20/2014
Ace and I get that mad too. A lot actually. Sometimes even at each other.
I'm not sure what you mean about the letter, but I know some pirates track things with it too, that's why I didn't mind you giving me that name, because I would let you track me no matter what if you wanted to. As for numbers, I'm not sure how that works either, since I thought it was just like the way we organized Pops' crew.
Either way, we'll get you a new name, all right? Or at least a nickname for now. How about owlet? Because you're like an owl always asking questions and learning more, and moving about in darkness, aye? Or it can be Roxowlet if you can keep your X and that way it'll be even easier to remember. Or we can ask Ikki for ideas.
Either way, I promised you before, and I'll promise again, I won't let anything happen to you, and I'll help you kill that guy if he ever comes looking. Or we can do anything else to him you want. It'll be harder with you on a different ship though. That's why Ace is frustrated.
Just keep in mind, he's not here yet, or at minimum, he's certainly not showing himself. So don't worry too much about things that might not happen.
- Marco
6/20/2014
It is kind of really complicated. So yeah. Let me try.
The guy in charge, Xemnas, he's the one that named me Roxas. The 'x' in my name is a mark. He can track me anywhere, that's how I know he's coming. I never thought about it before. They always knew what I was doing, I mean...every mission was really controlled. Anywhere I wasn't supposed to go they had blocked off.
There's a lot of reasons for him to be mad at me. I quit the Organization, for starters. That is, well, people don't do that. I don't think anyone else did. I know some where eliminated, but I don't really know much more then that. They went to Castle Oblivion and Axel was the only one to come back. But, if he's really tracking me even now, didn't I just lead him to Sora?
Lea also said I wasn't good for him. He couldn't use me. He wanted to put a piece of Xehanort's heart inside me and take over my body, pushing me out, I guess? Some kind of magic like that.
I'm not really supposed to interact with heart-people. I mean, I'm supposed to stay in The World That Never Was. Or after that, I guess, the fake Twilight Town. When he finds me, I think he might hurt people just to hurt me. Although really, he's done enough to hurt me, that's why I am so angry. I wish he knew what it was like. Somehow while I was there, I think he was doing something to me. I'm not sure exactly all of it...like I said my brain is really foggy. I seem to remember days where I was so tired I could barely summon my keyblade. I was having a hard time remembering things. I think he did something to me.
I don't really want another name. I just want it not to mean bad things. I have another name, I guess, and that's Sora. I don't feel like Sora though, I don't think so. So it's too weird to say hey, I'm Sora now. I think Lea prefers Lea, but I can't ever understand what he means. I just don't feel like I should be called Sora.
I'm not sure anything would help. He's already marked me, hasn't he?
Lea and I started talking about this because of his tattoo and because he doesn't want me to get anything to symbolize him. He doesn't want me marked anymore. I guess I get it but I thought it was different.
I'm not worried about me so much, but it might be really hard to protect everyone. I don't want anyone else to get hurt. He's really really mean. He's powerful, I think, but I don't know that much about his power. Doesn't matter though, I would make him pay. Lea has promised to destroy him too. He said the best thing he can do is make Xemnas' plans not work. I don't really understand how that helps but he says it will. I'd rather hit him with my keyblades until he asks me to stop and then not stop. I really want to make him feel like I do, but I don't know how to do that. He really is Heartless.
I don't mind your nicknames. You have lots for me. It's a bit weird, but I like it. I kind of like my name, you know? I mean, it means I'm not Sora. If I just join him and give up then what? Wouldn't I just disappear? I mean, I don't understand how we are really the same. I know we are but at the same time I don't know. Know what I mean? Probably not. Hmm.
He might not be here yet, but I know if he can find me he will come after me. I am sure of it. I don't think he's the kind of guy who would let a traitor get away.
-Roxas
6/20/2014
Nicknames are a good thing in my family. Thatch and I have a billion for each other. The more we share the better it is.
I'm not one to let traitors go either, but that's because of what it means to join in the first place. Like how Ace was saying he wanted you to hold your head high, it's because we only want people who want to give their all into being in the crew. So if someone just used us as a shield, it'd be a pretty grave insult, and in order to discourage anyone else from trying to do that, I'd be pretty cruel about it. The difference is though, that guy never gave you a choice about leaving. I'll given even enemies a chance to leave and live so long as they don't hurt my family.
I don't think you need to worry about protecting us. If he comes we'd be all too happy to lay a trap and like Riku and Lea decide how they want to deal with him. As powerful as he is, I don't think Davy Jones would bring someone more powerful than himself here, and Chandra and Grell and her crew are all strong and creatively insane, so I trust them to be able to come up with a plan to deal with things.
Are you just mad about being marked at all, or do you think it runs deeper?
- Marco
6/20/2014
I don't know if I can think of more nicknames though. I'll try really hard okay?
Well I understand and I guess I did join, but it's not really...I don't think the way I was, I could make a decision. I mean it was just he walks up to me and he gives me his word that he'll give me a purpose and answers and then named ma and that was it. I mean, I didn't say anything because I couldn't even talk back then. It's not really fair and then yeah I went to leave. There was nowhere to go though. I remember I didn't know where to go and then....I'm missing some time in there. And Riku found me and you know how that ended. Leaving the Organization doesn't mean I'll be accepted anywhere else. Riku didn't see me. He only saw Sora. He knew what to say to bring Sora out of me. That happens sometimes you know. He'll talk through me. Or should I say I'll? I don't know. I'm confused.
I guess I understand why I can't be part of the crew. Does that mean I have to get my tattoo changed like Lea is doing?
I'm not worried about his power. I just think that if I'm the only one here and I fight him because I will, he'll make my friends suffer for it. I don't think he cares much for heart-people anyway.
I gave it some thought. I think it's both. I'm very angry that I've been marked this way and I can't get rid of it. Even joining Sora is a bad idea because then they'll find him. I'm mad that he- [There's a scribble here] I guess I always knew he considered me a tool, but not just a tool. It's like being myself didn't matter, he's going to take it away from me. I'm mad because I think he knew everything that was happening to me and I'm remembering some things, some weird feelings and I am wondering if he was involved. I think he might have been and I'm mad about that too. I don't understand what I did to deserve any of this. I don't get it! I did everything they told me to until the end and I think he was messing around with me before then. He might have been, since I think he knew the witch Namine.
I am really confused about a lot of this and this letter probably makes no sense at all. Sorry.
-Roxas